also known as phierfih, or plovic. pick whichever feels familiar to you.
this place is a small collection of writings and fragments.
read whatever, skip whatever. none of it was written to be useful.
march 2026
do you know that being the dumbest person in a room means you can basically learn from everybody in there?
there is sadly no benefit of being the smartest person, you will ended up guiding and mentoring others (and only if they listen well) and this basically stopped your own growth. so remember, when you hit the celling it is time to move on to higher ones
december 2024
people don't change. some people just setup a mask when they first met you. and when those mask falls off you tend to think that "they changed" but in the first place nothing ever change.
and thats why so many people say to me that i dont change at all. because im so fucked up that i dont bother using any dumb mask to begin with.
i found this text while clearing up drive space on my nas server
and i still remember why i write this, because you remind me about this
may day, 2026
my first name belong to my grandfather first name, my middle name belong to my older half-brother first name, and my last name belongs to my family name.
i guess that's why it is called given name as we cannot choose it. as annoying as it is i carries dead man's name and living under their memories and legacy.
unknown date
i fucking hate it, is this a curse for me? or am i just unaware of this effect? i cannot listen to paticular songs anymore without ruining myself, fuck this shit.
those playlist that i painstakingly arrange myself, yeah those won't be played anytime soon, not in weeks, months, years or perhaps never again. it is just too much for me to bear, i hate how music could hold memories.
sept 11, 2025
the moment that i go into linux and unknowingly adapt the philosophy of it, i always feel i want to know more on how things are being executed since i feel disconnected from how things actually run since we all being abstracted away from it.
so just out of curiosity i decided to learn vulkan to get better understanding on it and how renderer works, hope i won't suffer and stumble around much, this is the github repository where i will share my journey on this.
feb 2025
win10 is going eol and i cannot upgrade to win11 because my cpu missing required features for it, so instead of upgrading my system as it work perfectly fine for me, i just switched to linux head on, without any proper knowledge. and install archlinux w/ hyprland, on intel cpu and nvidia gpu, so you can imagine how much trouble and shit happen on this occasion.
the first week is rough, multiple reinstall, broke nearly everything. second week getting there, able to use the system properly and start configure it, now it's been 214 days on archlinux w/ hyprland on my current system, and i never look back anymore.
somewhere in 2025
social media is like a life collection gallery imo, where you can share your life moment with others and vice-versa, this is the reason i never delete anything i post, is because those moment exist and i want it to be remembered. doesn't matter if those are happy, sad or awful memories. what matter is that they exist.
i dont want to leave, but i have to. so i will just go inactive for the time being, and probably lurking around. i lost interest in social media where it feels less like connection it used to be, and now it is more like noise, platform for conflict, misinformation, brain-dead content and shit that is just a waste of time.